Badminton

Baru balik dari main badminton.

Yup every Wednesday memang ofis aku and few people from business partners office pergi main badminton kat SK Bukit Damansara. Aku sebolehnya taknak miss main badminton ni. Sebabnya ni je la satu-satunya exercise aku dalam seminggu. Adoyai~seminggu sekali je ko exercise. Kalau gini la gayanya memang tak kurang la simpanan lemak spare kt perut tu kan. Tapi at least exercise jugak la daripada tak. Ok la tu. Main pon dalam 2 jam. So not bad sangat lah kan.

Tapi malam ni lain sikit. First time big boss join jugak. Terus senyap je court yang selalunya agak bising ngan jeritan-jeritan ala Maria Sharapova nak serve tennis tu. Aku nak main pun segan semacam je. Huhu. Sudahnya aku rasa macam Charlie Chaplin pon ada. Dah la memang tak berapa pandai main. Bila bos ada rasa macam lagi tak pandai je. Bos padahal lagi tak pandai dari kitorang (sorry bos. Nak je gelakkan bos tadi tapi takut. hehe). Terkial-kial je rasenya depan bos. Bila bos serve nak pandang muka bos pon malu. Apekehal la kan aku ni.

Some of my colleagues .
Gambar tiada kene mengena dengan badminton tapi antara yang selalu datang main: Syed, Mr Vijay, Mr Sharman, Kak Zaini and Hema (not in the picture).

We all main not that good pon. Terutama yang perempuan-perempuan ni. Macam Mr. Vijay, Mr. Myles and Mr. Sharman tak payah cakap la. Memang terror main. But at least I think times spend with colleagues tu much more precious kan. Tensen pon hilang. Boleh gelak kuat-kuat. Jerit-jerit time serve. Huargggh!.

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ME:Sakit lengan

Updating

Dah lama tak menulis. Dalam kepala banyak je benda nak update. Nak update pergi makan kat sini la. Nak update pergi lepak kat sana lah. Nak update aktiviti semasa la. KesoSIALan dengan member-member la. Sudahnya bila balik rumah penat, aku update tidur je la.

Sedar tak sedar 2012 dah nak masuk setengah tahun dah. Masa cepat je berlalu. Mungkin tu salah satu sebab kenapa dah lama tak update. Tak ada masa. To be precise tak cukup masa. Kalau ada masa lebih sikit pon rela tidur or siapkan assignment or maybe siapkan kerja.

Dah jadi workaholic ke? Mungkin jugak. Kalau cuti pon resah semacam je nak balik ofis. Weekend pon ade je alasan nak pergi ofis or buat-buat lalu depan ofis. Dapat tengok bumbung ofis pon jadik lah. LOL.

Tapi azam di pertengahan tahun ni adalah untuk lebih banyak update blog ni. Sayang kalau ditinggalkan lapuk. Bukan untuk orang baca tapi untuk diri sendiri semata. Bila baca post-post yang lepas-lepas tu tersengih pon ada. Teringat bila aku rage. Mengumpat. Whining. Complaining. Excited over something. That part of my life I want to keep it here. To remember and be remembered. Because I'm afraid I will forget that chapter of life journey if I don't record it here. Makin tua ni dah makin lupa.

Oh yeah. Now I'm living my life as it is. Not to the fullest but more relaxing (skip the part while working). Yeah busy but somehow I feel serene. Lonely but I feel content. This is me now. Live life as it is.

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ME: Banyak jemputan kahwin tapi tak rasa nak pergi.

In Denial

5th Mac 2012. Not a special day. But it's a day to remember.

He's who's going to be a uncle soon (yup we are waiting the new addition to our clan this month). Our "Acu Wan". A very clever kid. Nice talker. Manja. Suka bodek. Rajin bila disuruh. He who's everything to me. To our family.

After much denial for the past few years we decide to bring him to see the specialist. For us there's nothing wrong with him. It's just that he's a bit slow learner and maybe too manja and a bit lazy. We always said that "it's OK. Besar nanti pandai la tu". In the end, he's already in standard 4 but cant even read. Cant even spell "bin Mamat Khalid"

The doctor said he's actually a 10 year old boy with a 7 years old knowledge. With this result he's going to transfer to a special school. Takut. Memang takut. Kesian and everything. What if he don't have friends. What if its going to be worst at new school because of the "downgrade". What if he cant adapt to the new environment. What if there's people going to look at him like a handicap? What about his future.

All this came across my mind. To be frank I'm the one who's scare. Scare about what is going to happen to him. He? He's happy as always. Nothing can bother him as long as he can play with his Shasha the cat, fish and Turtle Odyssey.

Well. I hope this is the best decision for him. For us. InsyaAllah.

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ME: Acu sayang Muaz

A Brother I never had

Dari kecik sampai sekarang aku longing for a brother. Bukanlah tak suka ada kakak tapi aku nak sangat ada abang. Aku sebenarnya sangat jeleskan orang yang ada abang ni. Sah2 kalau yang memang rapat dengan abang dia. Yes Miss Labi you are one of those person yang aku sangat jeles. Hehehe.

Semua lelaki yang lagi tua dari aku and layan aku baik-baik mesti aku suka dia macam abang. A brother that I never had. So please don't misunderstood me. I have no 'special' feelings. I just want you to be a brother figure. And I just wanna feel how does it feels to be loved by someone that I can call abang (not abang suami ye).

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ME: Missing some one so bad

The chronical of my careless driving

Yesterday I hit someone car when I reverse my car. So frustrated. Why so careless. My so called alasan is that I woke up at 2am and drove all the way back from Terengganu to KL. Arrived in KL at 9.45 am and straightaway go to the office.

After that, attending a stupid meeting at some stupid government office. Why they stupid? They called and ask me to go NOW and when I'm almost there the meeting was postponed to 2.30. The stupidest things is they dont even bother to call. Lucky that my contractor called and inform. Well that's is the stupidity that cant be accepted whatever the reason is.

And at 5.30pm in heavily raining day, I reverse but only look at my right side. When I check my left side I saw the car, tapi kaki aku tetap jugak kental pressing the accelerator eventhough my brain dah bagi arahan kat kaki to press the brake.

Am my alasan acceptable? I'm so damn tired yesterday.

This is yesterday. Lucky that the man that I hit tu kata tak payah bayar. Masing2 just bear their own cost. Alhamdulillah. Kalau tak seksa jugak aku nak membayarnye.

This is a few months back. Not my fault. A lady tak sempat potong and terus scratch my baby. She doesnt even pay the money yet because we promise to go to the workshop together. But until today still dont have time to go. I hope she's still contactable.

And the first few month when i brought my car to KL. I posted it here.

Dan yang paling nak buat aku menangis bila boss besar call and tanya "what happen to your car?" Macam mana boss tau ni. Ni Mr. G la cakap ni. Boss nak tolong bayarkan lagi. Aku MALUUUUUU......

Yang paling malu lagi sebab Mr G ada masa aku langgar keta orang tu. Dia tengah tunggu aku follow keta dia. MALUUUUUU. Malu weh boss sendiri tengok aku punya careless and menggelabah tu. Mr G siap tolong turun payungkan aku pastu cakap kat brother tu jangan bising2. Yang paling tak tahan aku punya lesen dah mati 23/12/11 hari tu. Memang terbaik la aku! Nak buat report pon tak boleh.

What a day!
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ME: Malu sebenarnya

TERAKRU

TERAKRU.

Aik typo error ke?

Korang tau TERAKRU tu ape? Tau? Ke tak tau?

Kalau tau sila lah kembangkan diri sendiri ye.

Kalau tak tau sama-sama la jadi macam aku. Lempang pipi 2x. Malu dowh. Nama je Melayu. Perkataan terakru pon tak tahu. Mati-mati ingatkan typo error.

Sila la google kalau2 rasa nak tau terakru tu apa bagi sesiapa yang tak tahu.

Baru sedar rupanya banyak je perkataan bahasa Melayu yang kita aku tak tahu.

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ME: Not from here

Scared

To be honest, I feel proud of myself when I enrolled into a master program. But now I feel so scared. Am I doing the right thing? Did I invest my money correctly? It's not cheap you know.

This semester we only required to register 2 subjects. First subject assignment is quite easy. But the second subject, I am not sure whether I can get a good mark or not. I feel so uneasy today. Today is the last day of second assignment submission. Ramai je lagi yang belum hantar. But, since aku berhempas pulas bangun pukul 4 pagi, aku decide nak hantar je. Lagi pon kalau delay maybe akan kena potong markah.

But yang paling buat aku takut, aku punya assignment tu 5 page je. Tapi ada orang lain yang buat sampai 40 page. Memang la lecturer cakap page depends. 1 page or seberapa banyak page. Suka hati. Maksudnya apa? Cukup satu page asalkan menjawab soalan or should be berkoyan-koyan pages untuk elaborate all the details? Sampai sekarang rasa tak sedap hati. Aku buat betul tak. Aku elaborate cukup tak. Memang la how many pages tu tak penting. Yang penting content adakah menjawab soalan atau tidak. Tapi still..Arghh. Tak tahu!

Ottoke? Dou suru? What should I do? Apa patut aku buat? Should I resubmit? I don't have the energy to do it again. Can I just berserah? Boleh dapat A tak dengan effort aku tu?

Arghhhhh.....................................................!

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ME: Am I doing the right thing?