A Brother I never had

Dari kecik sampai sekarang aku longing for a brother. Bukanlah tak suka ada kakak tapi aku nak sangat ada abang. Aku sebenarnya sangat jeleskan orang yang ada abang ni. Sah2 kalau yang memang rapat dengan abang dia. Yes Miss Labi you are one of those person yang aku sangat jeles. Hehehe.

Semua lelaki yang lagi tua dari aku and layan aku baik-baik mesti aku suka dia macam abang. A brother that I never had. So please don't misunderstood me. I have no 'special' feelings. I just want you to be a brother figure. And I just wanna feel how does it feels to be loved by someone that I can call abang (not abang suami ye).

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ME: Missing some one so bad

The chronical of my careless driving

Yesterday I hit someone car when I reverse my car. So frustrated. Why so careless. My so called alasan is that I woke up at 2am and drove all the way back from Terengganu to KL. Arrived in KL at 9.45 am and straightaway go to the office.

After that, attending a stupid meeting at some stupid government office. Why they stupid? They called and ask me to go NOW and when I'm almost there the meeting was postponed to 2.30. The stupidest things is they dont even bother to call. Lucky that my contractor called and inform. Well that's is the stupidity that cant be accepted whatever the reason is.

And at 5.30pm in heavily raining day, I reverse but only look at my right side. When I check my left side I saw the car, tapi kaki aku tetap jugak kental pressing the accelerator eventhough my brain dah bagi arahan kat kaki to press the brake.

Am my alasan acceptable? I'm so damn tired yesterday.

This is yesterday. Lucky that the man that I hit tu kata tak payah bayar. Masing2 just bear their own cost. Alhamdulillah. Kalau tak seksa jugak aku nak membayarnye.

This is a few months back. Not my fault. A lady tak sempat potong and terus scratch my baby. She doesnt even pay the money yet because we promise to go to the workshop together. But until today still dont have time to go. I hope she's still contactable.

And the first few month when i brought my car to KL. I posted it here.

Dan yang paling nak buat aku menangis bila boss besar call and tanya "what happen to your car?" Macam mana boss tau ni. Ni Mr. G la cakap ni. Boss nak tolong bayarkan lagi. Aku MALUUUUUU......

Yang paling malu lagi sebab Mr G ada masa aku langgar keta orang tu. Dia tengah tunggu aku follow keta dia. MALUUUUUU. Malu weh boss sendiri tengok aku punya careless and menggelabah tu. Mr G siap tolong turun payungkan aku pastu cakap kat brother tu jangan bising2. Yang paling tak tahan aku punya lesen dah mati 23/12/11 hari tu. Memang terbaik la aku! Nak buat report pon tak boleh.

What a day!
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ME: Malu sebenarnya

TERAKRU

TERAKRU.

Aik typo error ke?

Korang tau TERAKRU tu ape? Tau? Ke tak tau?

Kalau tau sila lah kembangkan diri sendiri ye.

Kalau tak tau sama-sama la jadi macam aku. Lempang pipi 2x. Malu dowh. Nama je Melayu. Perkataan terakru pon tak tahu. Mati-mati ingatkan typo error.

Sila la google kalau2 rasa nak tau terakru tu apa bagi sesiapa yang tak tahu.

Baru sedar rupanya banyak je perkataan bahasa Melayu yang kita aku tak tahu.

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ME: Not from here

Scared

To be honest, I feel proud of myself when I enrolled into a master program. But now I feel so scared. Am I doing the right thing? Did I invest my money correctly? It's not cheap you know.

This semester we only required to register 2 subjects. First subject assignment is quite easy. But the second subject, I am not sure whether I can get a good mark or not. I feel so uneasy today. Today is the last day of second assignment submission. Ramai je lagi yang belum hantar. But, since aku berhempas pulas bangun pukul 4 pagi, aku decide nak hantar je. Lagi pon kalau delay maybe akan kena potong markah.

But yang paling buat aku takut, aku punya assignment tu 5 page je. Tapi ada orang lain yang buat sampai 40 page. Memang la lecturer cakap page depends. 1 page or seberapa banyak page. Suka hati. Maksudnya apa? Cukup satu page asalkan menjawab soalan or should be berkoyan-koyan pages untuk elaborate all the details? Sampai sekarang rasa tak sedap hati. Aku buat betul tak. Aku elaborate cukup tak. Memang la how many pages tu tak penting. Yang penting content adakah menjawab soalan atau tidak. Tapi still..Arghh. Tak tahu!

Ottoke? Dou suru? What should I do? Apa patut aku buat? Should I resubmit? I don't have the energy to do it again. Can I just berserah? Boleh dapat A tak dengan effort aku tu?

Arghhhhh.....................................................!

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ME: Am I doing the right thing?

SEX

I should have been doing my assignment at this moment. But I choose to write about SEX.

Well. well. well. Kenapa nak tulis pasal sex? Sebenarnya nak menyuarakan ketakpuasaan hati terhadap sesetengah makhluk Allah yang tak berapa sensitif. Aku memang malu nak cakap pasal sex in a very non scientific way aka mencarut, melalut, mengarut etc. Tapi bila orang yang dah kahwin sesedap hati bercakap something yang ada unsur 18SX depan-depan apa perasaan anda? Aku rasa malu. And bagi aku itu boleh dianggap harassment. Tak perlu nak cerita too details. Lame joke. Sex joke. Its not funny OK.

Untuk aku, aku tak ada masalah kalau nak cakap pasal sex in a scientific way.
Contoh: source from wikipedia

" In biology, sex is a process of combining and mixing genetic traits, often resulting in the specialization of organisms into a male or female variety (each known as a sex). Sexual reproduction involves combining specialized cells (gametes) to form offspring that inherit traits from both parents. Gametes can be identical in form and function (known as isogametes), but in many cases an asymmetry has evolved such that two sex-specific types of gametes (heterogametes) exist: male gametes are small, motile, and optimized to transport their genetic information over a distance, while female gametes are large, non-motile and contain the nutrients necessary for the early development of the young organism"

So for those who so called "experience" people you wanna talk about your sex life with me? Try use all the scientific term. If not, I'm going to tell people that you are a sex maniac!

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ME: Sensitif la sikit

Go Green

Notice any changes in my blog? Yup I change the theme from pink to green. Reason being is just untuk bertukar angin. And nak bagi semangat baru untuk kembali menulis.

But since we are talking about green lets talk about GO GREEN pulak. Rasanya ramai dah yang aware pasal go green ni. Tak perlu tunggu kempem besar-besaran baru nak ada kesedaran kan. Semua pon dah tahu. Bumi semakin tua. Pokok-pokok dah banyak ditebang. Udara dah makin tercemar. Flora dan fauna dah ada yang pupus (teringat jawapan biologi time sekolah. haha)

Picture from ecofuture

But sorry to say, we Malaysian ni tak semua yang ada kesedaran pasal "Think Green, Act Green". Berapa ramai yang akan bawak beg sendiri on Saturday kat hypermarket even though tahu every Saturday for every beg plastic kena charge RM 0.20. Sanggup bayar lagi kan 20 sen tu. Itu pihak pengguna. Pihak hypermarket pulak patutnya memang tak bagi je terus beg plastik. Kalau kata no plastic bag day, then no plastic bag lah.

Sama jugak dekat kedai 24 jam ni. Dekat cashier ada je tulis "plastic bag only provided upon request". Sudahnya walaupon customer tak request still letak jugak dalam plastik. Kita pulak yang kena cakap tak payah bagi plastik. Kan dah terbalik dengan apa yang ditulis. Patut management kena la explain dekat cashier pasal benda-benda macam ni.

Lets share 10 Ways to Go Green and Save Green;

1. Kurangkan penggunaan plasik bag. Bawa beg kertas ketika membeli belah.
2. Kalaun cashier letak jugak barang dalam plastik suruh dia keluarkan balik biarpun pandangan mata hari sabtu bermaksud "minah bapak kedekut 20 sen pon xboleh bayar ke".
3. Recycle kertas-kertas surat khabar dan majalah lama
4. Print double sided, 2 side in one page. Kalau tersalah print guna balik kertas tu. Kat side lagi satu tu masih boleh guna. Jangan sesedap hati nak renyuk masuk tong sampah.
5. Jangan bakar sampah secara terbuka
6. Asingkan sampah mengikut kategori
7. Cuba guna public transport semaksima mungkin
8. Berjalan kaki untuk ke tempat yang agak dekat instead of bawak kereta walaupun jaraknya adalah 10 tapak je.
9. Jangan buang sampah merata-rata
10. Larang orang buang sampah merata-rata - sangat annoying kan kalau tengok orang yang suka buang sampah tak kira tempat. Paling annoying tong sampah depan mata pon taknak buang sampah dalam tong sampah jugak.

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ME: Green is green.

My 2 cent

Sekarang ni pastinya semua rakyat malaysia bersorak keriangan meraikan kemenangan skuad bola sepak Malaysia menang pingat emas sukan SEA.

But, dah nampak banyak status kat FB or Twitter asking for cuti sempena kemenangan. Sebetulnya aku memang tak nampak kat mana relevannya cuti bila menang bola. Macam dah jadi satu trend, menang bola je cuti. Cuti je sebab menang bola. Siapa yang start dulu benda ni sebenarnya?

Boleh bagi tau tujuan? Menghargai sokongan dan doa dari peminat?? Nak bagi pemain dan peminat yang berpenat lelah melepaskan penat mereka?

Aku sound agak negatif kat sini. Memang sangat tak relevan apabila sesuatu cuti itu dikaitkan dengan bola. Sejujurnya itu lah pandangan aku. My 2 cent opinion.

Apa pun Harimau Malaya sekalung TAHNIAH! Bukan tak suka kamu menang. Suka sangat-sangat.

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ME: Jangan jadi kaum pemalas