Scared

To be honest, I feel proud of myself when I enrolled into a master program. But now I feel so scared. Am I doing the right thing? Did I invest my money correctly? It's not cheap you know.

This semester we only required to register 2 subjects. First subject assignment is quite easy. But the second subject, I am not sure whether I can get a good mark or not. I feel so uneasy today. Today is the last day of second assignment submission. Ramai je lagi yang belum hantar. But, since aku berhempas pulas bangun pukul 4 pagi, aku decide nak hantar je. Lagi pon kalau delay maybe akan kena potong markah.

But yang paling buat aku takut, aku punya assignment tu 5 page je. Tapi ada orang lain yang buat sampai 40 page. Memang la lecturer cakap page depends. 1 page or seberapa banyak page. Suka hati. Maksudnya apa? Cukup satu page asalkan menjawab soalan or should be berkoyan-koyan pages untuk elaborate all the details? Sampai sekarang rasa tak sedap hati. Aku buat betul tak. Aku elaborate cukup tak. Memang la how many pages tu tak penting. Yang penting content adakah menjawab soalan atau tidak. Tapi still..Arghh. Tak tahu!

Ottoke? Dou suru? What should I do? Apa patut aku buat? Should I resubmit? I don't have the energy to do it again. Can I just berserah? Boleh dapat A tak dengan effort aku tu?

Arghhhhh.....................................................!

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ME: Am I doing the right thing?

SEX

I should have been doing my assignment at this moment. But I choose to write about SEX.

Well. well. well. Kenapa nak tulis pasal sex? Sebenarnya nak menyuarakan ketakpuasaan hati terhadap sesetengah makhluk Allah yang tak berapa sensitif. Aku memang malu nak cakap pasal sex in a very non scientific way aka mencarut, melalut, mengarut etc. Tapi bila orang yang dah kahwin sesedap hati bercakap something yang ada unsur 18SX depan-depan apa perasaan anda? Aku rasa malu. And bagi aku itu boleh dianggap harassment. Tak perlu nak cerita too details. Lame joke. Sex joke. Its not funny OK.

Untuk aku, aku tak ada masalah kalau nak cakap pasal sex in a scientific way.
Contoh: source from wikipedia

" In biology, sex is a process of combining and mixing genetic traits, often resulting in the specialization of organisms into a male or female variety (each known as a sex). Sexual reproduction involves combining specialized cells (gametes) to form offspring that inherit traits from both parents. Gametes can be identical in form and function (known as isogametes), but in many cases an asymmetry has evolved such that two sex-specific types of gametes (heterogametes) exist: male gametes are small, motile, and optimized to transport their genetic information over a distance, while female gametes are large, non-motile and contain the nutrients necessary for the early development of the young organism"

So for those who so called "experience" people you wanna talk about your sex life with me? Try use all the scientific term. If not, I'm going to tell people that you are a sex maniac!

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ME: Sensitif la sikit

Go Green

Notice any changes in my blog? Yup I change the theme from pink to green. Reason being is just untuk bertukar angin. And nak bagi semangat baru untuk kembali menulis.

But since we are talking about green lets talk about GO GREEN pulak. Rasanya ramai dah yang aware pasal go green ni. Tak perlu tunggu kempem besar-besaran baru nak ada kesedaran kan. Semua pon dah tahu. Bumi semakin tua. Pokok-pokok dah banyak ditebang. Udara dah makin tercemar. Flora dan fauna dah ada yang pupus (teringat jawapan biologi time sekolah. haha)

Picture from ecofuture

But sorry to say, we Malaysian ni tak semua yang ada kesedaran pasal "Think Green, Act Green". Berapa ramai yang akan bawak beg sendiri on Saturday kat hypermarket even though tahu every Saturday for every beg plastic kena charge RM 0.20. Sanggup bayar lagi kan 20 sen tu. Itu pihak pengguna. Pihak hypermarket pulak patutnya memang tak bagi je terus beg plastik. Kalau kata no plastic bag day, then no plastic bag lah.

Sama jugak dekat kedai 24 jam ni. Dekat cashier ada je tulis "plastic bag only provided upon request". Sudahnya walaupon customer tak request still letak jugak dalam plastik. Kita pulak yang kena cakap tak payah bagi plastik. Kan dah terbalik dengan apa yang ditulis. Patut management kena la explain dekat cashier pasal benda-benda macam ni.

Lets share 10 Ways to Go Green and Save Green;

1. Kurangkan penggunaan plasik bag. Bawa beg kertas ketika membeli belah.
2. Kalaun cashier letak jugak barang dalam plastik suruh dia keluarkan balik biarpun pandangan mata hari sabtu bermaksud "minah bapak kedekut 20 sen pon xboleh bayar ke".
3. Recycle kertas-kertas surat khabar dan majalah lama
4. Print double sided, 2 side in one page. Kalau tersalah print guna balik kertas tu. Kat side lagi satu tu masih boleh guna. Jangan sesedap hati nak renyuk masuk tong sampah.
5. Jangan bakar sampah secara terbuka
6. Asingkan sampah mengikut kategori
7. Cuba guna public transport semaksima mungkin
8. Berjalan kaki untuk ke tempat yang agak dekat instead of bawak kereta walaupun jaraknya adalah 10 tapak je.
9. Jangan buang sampah merata-rata
10. Larang orang buang sampah merata-rata - sangat annoying kan kalau tengok orang yang suka buang sampah tak kira tempat. Paling annoying tong sampah depan mata pon taknak buang sampah dalam tong sampah jugak.

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ME: Green is green.

My 2 cent

Sekarang ni pastinya semua rakyat malaysia bersorak keriangan meraikan kemenangan skuad bola sepak Malaysia menang pingat emas sukan SEA.

But, dah nampak banyak status kat FB or Twitter asking for cuti sempena kemenangan. Sebetulnya aku memang tak nampak kat mana relevannya cuti bila menang bola. Macam dah jadi satu trend, menang bola je cuti. Cuti je sebab menang bola. Siapa yang start dulu benda ni sebenarnya?

Boleh bagi tau tujuan? Menghargai sokongan dan doa dari peminat?? Nak bagi pemain dan peminat yang berpenat lelah melepaskan penat mereka?

Aku sound agak negatif kat sini. Memang sangat tak relevan apabila sesuatu cuti itu dikaitkan dengan bola. Sejujurnya itu lah pandangan aku. My 2 cent opinion.

Apa pun Harimau Malaya sekalung TAHNIAH! Bukan tak suka kamu menang. Suka sangat-sangat.

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ME: Jangan jadi kaum pemalas

Jun 2011

Jun 2011.

New start of my life.
I start my new job. I ended my 7 years on-off relationship with my so then called "boyfriend". I applied for a master program. In another word I start afresh.

Now, November 2011.

I turned 26.

I'm very happy with my new job. I love my job. I love my boss. I love my colleagues. I think I learn a lot of new things.

I'm not finding a new love just yet. But I think ending uncertain relationship had done me good. There's no need to think why haven't he call. How is he doing. How much does he love me. Bla. Bla. I think I manage to live on my own.

The best thing is I am now a student again. Excited to go to class just like my first year in uni. My course mate they all amazing people. I learn a lot from all the senpai. The lecturer. It is true what my friend said, master program really different from degree. Different in a way lebih berani to give opinion, open discussion between lecturer and students. What more can I ask for? Erm maybe someone to help me finish my assignment??? HAhaha.

I love being busy. Outstation. Catching up with my study. I am CONTENT.

And very thankful for the blessing Allah had given me.

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ME: 24 hours sometimes not enough

What Happened?

What happened?

# BUSY

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ME: BUSY

My baby

This is my baby after my careless driving!

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ME:Macam mana mahu mengadap ayahanda