Aku Gila Kuasa

Yup aku "Power crazy". But with boundaries lah.

Kat sini bukan bermaksud aku gila nak jadi bos ke apa. Tapi aku kadang-kadang nak je buat semua kerja sendiri sebab honestly aku tak berapa nak percaya dekat orang. Kita nak cepat orang buat terhegeh-hegeh. Kita nak lain orang buat lain. Kita rasa dah betul sampai kat orang jadi salah pulak. Kita kata urgent orang buat lewa. Dah tu macam mana?

Aku memang tak perfect. Kompem punya. Semua pun manusia biasa je kan. Tapi dengan perbuatan boleh nilai sama ada orang buat kerja dengan integriti ke main-main. Serius or sambil lewa. Kadang-kadang karenah orang buat aku tak paham. Dedikasi kerja diorang tahap mana.

Hari ni team aku memang totally screwed! Sebab call letter yang kitorang hantar kat respondent rupa-rupanya terperap kat meja orang yang bertanggungjawab mengepos surat. Bukan 2 hari. Tapi 2 minggu ye kawan-kawan. Patut lah tak ada satu pon reply slip dari negeri tu. Rupanya surat tak sampai . Diorang nak reply macam mana. Meeting tu 13hb ni. Hari ni dah 9hb. Yabê! Terus bermati-matian kitorang call semua respondent tu. Nasib baik tahu hari ni. Kalau tahu next week memang tak tau nak cakap lah. Ada yang kena buang keje agaknya.

That's why ada baiknya kalau tak mengharapkan orang. This is a good lesson untuk team aku. Supaya cepat-cepat follow up walaupun sesibuk mana pon. Then kena sentiasa tau ada orang memang kene cucuk bontot selalu baru dia nak gerak. Therefore kita kena jadi proaktif. Sentiasa follow up dan cucuk bontot orang.

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ME: Thanks Ajis for faxing all the letter

Aku gatal

Aku gatal nak upload gambar ni sebab aku serius tak ada topik nak menulis.

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ME:Rajin tak aku kat ofis ?

Thanks for your concern

To my dear readers thanks for your concern pasal the previous entry hari tu. Thanks for reading my syok sendiri blog ni. Thanks sebab menaikkan traffic dan duit tabung nuffnang saya.

Aku pernah tulis berkenaan pasal kawan aku yang mesej aku ucap tahniah kononnya aku dah kahwin and even pregnant! Boleh klik SINI kalau rasa nak baca lagi skali. Actually ceritanya tak end kat situ je. Ada lagi sorang kawan mesej kat Facebook, konon terasa dia tak dijemput ke majlis aku. Buat-buat soalan macam mana life sekarang. Dengar tengah berbahagia. WTH?? Aku pon terus bagi bengong sebijik. Geram aku.

Ada lagi sorang kawan, SY siap call. Aku dah lama tak kontek dia. Ada la dalam setahun lebih. Tapi sanggup call aku. Tanya kenapa dia tak dijemput. Aku rase puzzle je dalam kepala otak aku ni. Adakah aku dalam separa sedar dan tak perasan bahawa aku telah pon berkahwin? Adakah aku ni sebenarnya Sydney Bristow dalam Alias or Liam Neeson dalam Unknown tu? Hahaha. Nah amik ko. Memang korang telah berjaya membuat aku paranoid. Thank you to penyebar cerita whoever you are.

Kepada SY aku pon explain bukan main lagi. Lepas aku explain tu yang paling tak tahan dia cakap dia risau kalau aku jadi ANDARTU. Hello. Ramai je lagi yang umur 25-26 belum kahwin. Tapi thanks for your concern SY. Dan thanks sebab berjaya membuatkan aku takut aku jadi andartu dan membuatkan aku desperate nak kawen. To SY, even if I become an andartu, I think I can take care of myself. Tapi harap tak lah sampai tahap tu. Aku belom pon 26 OK.Oh dimanakan my dearest boyfriend di saat aku memerlukan?? Keh3.

Then hari Jumaat hari tu Dayat YM aku. Bercakap pasal N yang akan kahwin 31 hb ni. Tapi paling best dia risaukan aku. Sebab now tinggal aku sorang je yang belum kahwin. Yang paling tak tahan katanya aku cantik tapi TAK KURUS (in case you didn't know that's the other word for F*T, if you know what I mean). Katanya aku kalau kurus berderet-deret yang akan nak kat aku termasuk dia. Katanya aku malas berusaha untuk kurus. Wooho. It's that what it really takes to make someone loves you? Kurus? Hurm. I dont think so. Well that's the answer coming from a fat mouth. So I really don't know whether it is correct or not.

To Dayat, I really love you. As a friend. You are my best male friend. I know your concern. I know that you love me too. But to say that aku tak berusaha that's not really fair. Don't you think so? You without your good look and BMW do you think all the hot and slim babes will look at you twice? So you are lucky that you born rich and have a bloody good look genetic. You don't even need to try. So don't put 'tak berusaha' words on me. You don't even know what berusaha mean. Oh. Look what have I become. Such a bitter b****h.

Aku bersyukur ada kawan-kawan yang sangat concern pasal aku. Really. Bukan sarcastic ni. Memang sincere from the bottom of my heart.

P/S: Ada tak sesiapa rasa Remy Ishak dalam iklan Dashing tu hot?? Hot as really2 hot??
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ME: Sentiasa berdoa dipercepatkan jodoh

During time like this (sad)

It's a sad family situation.

My cousin been in an accident last Saturday. Sampai sekarang masih lagi dalam ICU. Unconscious. It's been 5 days already. Not sure whether coma or he'd been given sedative to put him into sleep. Tak berani nak tanya banyak-banyak in a situation like this. Hari tu lepas accident sempat tengok sekejap je kat Hospital Ajil. Pastu kena bawak ke Hospital KT. Kami follow ke KT and ramai-ramai tunggu sampai 12 malam tapi tak sure apa cerita. Penuh Said's clan dekat emergency tu.

And now I'm not sure the exact condition because dah balik KL. Tanya mak or other cousin pun bukan tau medical condition dia. Just boleh cakap belum sedar. Katanya otak bengkak. And he's only 19 years old. He's got a long way to go in life. Maybe Allah has a better plan for him. Who knows. We can only pray and hope things will turn out well.

I work in the hospital. Still during time like this I feel hopeless. Only if I know every condition of diseases. Only if I have the knowledge. Only. But I'm no one. I'm just the damn RO. There's a lot to learn. For someone who does not have medical background there's a lot of things I don't know. I wish I can be more useful.

During time like this I wish I could have done things differently. I wish I can be more close to my family. To my siblings. My cousins. My uncles and aunties. Lucky at time like this we help each other. Put our differences aside. Me and my male cousin we rarely speak. Maybe because we all have grown up. Not seeing much of each other. Not that we dont care about each other. During time like this only we realize that family always matters. No matter what.

And during time like this baru sempat jumpa other family members. Barulah tau update sorang-sorang. But ada jugak berita sedih tentang the other 2 cousins. Tak tau lah apa nak jadi dengan adik-adik ni. Kenapa lah tak pikir pasal mak ayah bila buat sesuatu. Geram je aku nak balik nak bagi ceramah kat 2 orang ni. Benda yang diorang buat ni tak ada faedah langsung. Merosakkan diri. Menjatuhkan maruah keluarga. Memalukan mak ayah. Harap sangat diorang insaf. Balik ke pangkal jalan.

Sedikit sentimental malam ni. SEDIH.
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ME: Harap adik-adik jadi orang berguna.

Aku ingin jadi manusia yang bersyukur

I think semua orang pon dah tahu berkenaan earthquake dan tsunami yang melanda Jepun. So devastated. Kemusnahan tak tahu berapa billion. Kematian dijangka mencecah 10000 orang. Walau pon angka rasmi setakat semalam ialah 2400 tetapi memandangkan massive destruction mungkin betul 10000. Or worst it could be more.

Oleh itu aku ingin jadi manusia yang bersyukur. Walau pon hari ni dapat berita sedih iaitu ada pekeliling bahawa gaji kontrak akan dikurangkan. Apalah sangat berbanding dengan kemusnahan kat Jepun. Oleh itu aku patut bersyukur. Well kerajaan sekarang for sure akan hilang vote aku pada pilihan raya akan datang. Erm. Ya aku bersyukur. Tapi aku berhak untuk memilih sesiapa yang aku nak kan?

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ME: Nihon tetap aku sayang seperti dulu

A & L

Who : Ain & Lukman
Date : 3 February 2011

A,
I hope you don't mind I post your (our) pic here.
Gambar dah basi tapi kena letak jugak.
Reminder for me that geng 4 inci yang dulu tak cukup inci now dah jadi isteri orang. Hehe.

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ME: Wishing you all the happiness

Lost

Lost in translation. Lost in transition. Lost in transmission. Whatever it is I'm at lost.

I wanna give yet I wanna take back. I laugh yet I'm crying. I'm good and even bad. I eat but starving. I drink but thirsty. I love and hate.

I'm worried and I'm thinking. I kind of lost the people that I love. Am I being sensitive or they are the one who insensitive? Now we are on the parallel line. No meeting point. And I'm afraid there's no turning back. And we will be drift apart.

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ME: There's no turning back